My partner happens to be a long-distance truck driver and can be away from our apartment for multiple weeks at a time! When he is gone, I am left alone with our little girl and multiple cats. Before our kid was born I was fine with being alone in the house for stretches of time because I know self-defense. But now things are totally different. I assume it is motherly instinct, for I worry about her always. I get all these frightening thoughts running through my head which I just can’t seem to let go of.
It has gotten so intense that I had a security repair come in and set up a security system in the house. I have every window and door alarmed, plus surveillance cameras in the front and back of the house, automated lights and motion detection. My partner thinks I’m crazy but he doesn’t understand the fear I feel for our baby girl. What if someone broke in and put her in harm’s way? I couldn’t live with myself knowing I let that happen through negligence.
My partner is thinking of our well-being and is actively seeking a transfer to a local route. The pay isn’t as good, however he would be here almost every night. I assume that will help calm some of my fear, although I will not give up the security system no matter how many nights a week he is here; At least, not until our kid is an adult.